(Al...I wanted to include you on this but doh...I forgot to CC: you too
sorry about that) You were a HUGE part of my original recovery...and I
just wanted to share some of what is happening with me right now. To
better understand you may have to scroll down to the bottom...and my first
e-mail to Jim ;-)
Have no fear KC will fight the fight...I'm to stubborn for anyting else
;-) /hugs to you Al I'm always sneaking into your CClive chat to see if
your smiling...and I'll /pounce you if you ever stop ;-p...so just read on
ok ;-)
kace
Thanks Jim...(and John too always my silent angel)
You've been a bright spot in a very cloudy day ;-)
I swear I'll deny this if you tell anyone *L* but
I slept for several hours (and just woke up)
Funny how my body just gives out sometimes.
I knew I was really pushing it w/ all the bball but it was a dream come
true to me and something I wanted to complete ;-)
The last concussion I suffered (during the scrimmage games) caused a few
more problems then they caught at the time...
Well...the disappointment of the day has leveled off and I'm smiling
again. I haven't told my mom everything (although I did tell here about
the previous tests when the blood work was showing changes)
B/c of the Kel thing it was hard to have to tell her ;-( I felt guilty for
adding more to her already loaded up plate
She's a rock Guys...I don't know how she keeps it all together.
Guess she passed some of that on to me b/c I don't fear what lies
ahead...I don't like it but I refuse to let it control my life any more
then it has to.
Right now the Dr.s don't even want me playing bball for fun...when they
said NO bball they mean NONE...that makes me sad. I'm so used to DOING
things...you don't know how tough it is on me to be *tired* to the point I
just want to sleep. I guess I better listen to my body and pool all my
energy within.
*L*
If having heart was the miracle cure...I'd be 1000% right now ;-)
I'm hoping the Dr's in Baltimore will give me some awesome info and new
choices ;-) My Aunt (she's a nurse) was the one who set this up earlier so
the timing is even better ;-)
I don't really like my Specialist here, we just can't relate very well
-( and he never smiles...
to me that's really important!
Haha...imagine rating a doctor on his smiles...*L* that's a Kaycee *must
have* and I won't accept less.
I'm staying UPBEAT...to late to change how I am ;-p
and it works for me but I have my moments of *silent* meditation and
slowmode.
Thanks for understanding but I want to still pop in HSClub and release my
*pep* in there. If that's ok ;-)
I don't want to give up anything...funny thing is there is someone very
special to me (yes a guy) and I'll fight my damnest b/c I'd like to see
what the future has for him and I. That's sorta selfish on my part but he
makes me toooo happy to give up on it ;-)
So I'll go second by second ;-) cherish it, treasure it, lock it away so
one day I can look back and say *I had the BEST of everything in my life*
b/c I truly believe that ;-)
Hugs to my 2 fave Brothers
sending love your way ;-)
kace
CaptainKaya@collegeclub.com wrote:
>Ah KC, you have more on your plate than can be imagined. Your outlook is
>admirable and your dedication to everything you hold dear is remarkable.
>Good call on HSClub stuff...I will have Candy and LuLu take over from
here
>on out. I agree, they are ready. Don't worry at all about HSClub, okay?
>We're kicking ass! I just heard good news. The average member spends 253
>minutes (4 hrs and 13 minutes) on site per month. This puts us 38th on
the
>entire web (170 minutes above CC and even 53 minutes above Yahoo!) Wow!
>Thanks for helping to make that happen.
>
>Okay, now about your health. I am sorry to hear that your body is not
>cooperating with your plans. I guess this happens sometimes. I
appreciate
>being kept informed...you never *have* to (don't feel pressure) but I do
>like to know how you are. I, like others, wish there was something I
>could do. Of course, all I can do is send you some good
>energy...zzzzzzzzz...feel it?
>
>I hope you feel better and have your headaches cease. Hang in there KC.
>We're pulling for you.
>
>love,
>Jim
>
>
>"Simply KC" <Kutebabe@collegeclub.com> wrote:
>
>>Hey Jim,
>>
>>I don't know how to write this e-mail...
>>I have had to go through some tests lately, and today I got the results.
>>The news is not good (not impossible *L* nothing is impossible) but I
>have
>>to face this w/ renewed strength.
>>There has been recent changes in my blood cells, the doctors at first
>>would not label it as being out of remission but now they have. I'm no
>>longer in remission is the official word.
>>To add to this problem my GVHD (Graf vs Host Disease) has gotten much
>>worse. What that means in the Bone Marrow transplant I recieved is
>working
>>against me. It had been controlable to a point but to make a long story
>>short it is attacking my body and causing more problems.
>>The doctors say NO more bball until we get things under better control.
>>
>>I'm going to DC in Aug and my aunt and I will be visiting a clinic of
>>Onocologists in Baltimore in the hopes of getting a clearer picture of
>>things.
>>
>>I don't want to stop doing the things I'm doing, or slow down or let
life
>>pass me by. But I'm tired right now, and the bad headaches are more
>>frequent and very painful, due to a break down of cells (blood flow &
>>oxyogen) into the brain.
>>ugh...and taking several blows to the head lately caused some bleeding.
>>
>>Anyway...I'm having trouble w/ forgetting things...I can't keep up on
>>somedays, and it aggrivates me.
>>Do you know I forgot...I mean totally forgot about stuff on HSClub. ;-(
>>
>>Jim I don't want to stop helping on HSClub but I'm failing you and the
>>hosts miserably.
>>I think Candy (match U) and Lulu (member of the day) are ready to handle
>>the admin part if you feel comfortable with that.
>>
>>What makes me so (down) sometimes about Luekemia is it just doesn't have
>>any compassion. As strong as I am it still has the ability to take
things
>>from me. I don't want it to but I can't fight against those things.
>>
>>I'm searching for other forms of treatment right now, I don't want to
>take
>>Chemo & radiation so soon. If there are other ways to fight it I'd
prefer
>>them.
>>The timing of all this is sooooo bad. I won't let it stop me from moving
>>or from grabbing my dreams.
>>I can't...or it has beat me.
>>
>>I'm sorry to load you up w/ my personal and family problems lately.
>>
>>The Sun is still shining...even above the storm clouds ;-)
>>
>>I'll do my normal Kaycee thing...keep moving forward. I don't know how
to
>>quit...
>>
>>/hugs
>>love ya
>>kace
>>
>>
>>*I'm a Genie in a bottle, baby*
>>~ Kaycee ~
>>~ CC HOST ~
>>
>>
>>~ Be glad of life, because it gives you the chance to love and to work
>and
>>to play and to look up at the stars.
>>
>>~ I listened, motionless and still; and as I mounted up the hill, the
>>music in my heart I bore, long after it was heard no more. ~ William
>>Wordsworth
>>
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